What Is My Problem ?

I will admit... most of my posts are extremely sarcastic and brutally honest about dating and other male/female interactions. Hey, I like to make lite of certain situations. It's definitely my coping mechanism.

One thing THE GIRLS and I have started to become cognizant of is making better decisions in relationships and our other friendships with men. Being 30+ calls for more mature decisions. Literally, last night I had to call one of THE GIRLS to talk me off of the ledge of making a horrible decision that I once made effortlessly and willingly TIME and TIME again.

"Girl.... I need you to talk to me until I make it home to ensure that I don't call that nigga...."

Thank Sweet Baby Jesus that (i) she was awake and (ii) she successfully talked me all the way home until I was safe and in my bed....ALONE !!! I need to make better decisions in my relationships...and DAMNIT.. I am prepared to see this thing out.

So what's this all about ?

I recently started seeing a certain gentleman caller. He is extremely tall, handsome, employed, college educated (even has a Master's Degree), attentive and nice. When we set dates he spends unlimited time with me and has not given any excuses about not being able to meet me and/or not wanting to go out. (He literally just text me while I was typing this to let me know he made it home safely.) Hell, today we took a long walk, a-round the park, af-ter...well...nah, it was at 7pm. The sun was still out. He is a nice catch and I am committed to giving the nice guy a chance.

So, what's the problem ?

I have no idea. However, I have tried and tried to find something to make me not want to date him....and they are BULLSHIT reasons. Such as....

"Girl ... (i) he had deodorant on his shirt (ii) he dances...who in the lame hell dances ?? (iii) he wears this link bracelet and that is so lame (iv) he acts so excited to see me...I am like, calm down clown.."

These are serious BS reasons I tried to justify not seeing him again.

The obvious warranted reasons for cutting a brother off should definitely border on somethings such as (i) he used to be a dope dealer (ii) he can't speak The King's English and keeps asking me to pronounce words for him (iii) he has 5 kids, by 5 different women and (iv) his girlfriend/ex girlfriend bust into the restaurant we were having lunch and boldly announced to him, me and the other 50 patrons "NAH NIGGA...WE STILL TOGETHER !!! I JUST WATCHED YO DAMN KIDS THE OTHER WEEK !!" Yes, these were actual circumstances of ONE guy that one of THE GIRLS was seeing. Sweet Baby Jesus...

So how will this new found focus on giving the nice guy a chance turn out ? I have no freaking idea....Stay tuned.....